I'VE FINALLY FOUND IT!!! WOOO!!
temporary link:
http://www.himfr.com/d-p114435099805934025-plush_polar_bear_toy/

my original EXACT Plush Polar Bear T_T
regret for cutting alot of furs off 

when i was younger haha!

it's nose is broken D:

looks abit yellowish O.o

scratched eyes.

im trying to find a place to buy it in Singapore

i miss having my old bear T_T

but at least i still have it :D

My treasure <3

Jealousy

Remember that feeling which was triggered when your rival beat you at a test or when our siblings got something which you sorely wanted? That feeling is jealousy. Do you recall the days in your younger childhood when your parents and teachers nagged at you about how jealousy is not good? Actually, jealousy, like of a coin, has two sides to it. It can be the beginning of great evil or it might bring forth a hidden courage or determination from within a person.

When a person is jealous and has the misfortune of being negatively affected by it, he might start plotting ways to destroy the person he is jealous of. For example, if your sibling gets a toy which you desired dearly, you might start hating your sibling. When this hatred gradually builds up inside you, eventually you will want retribution. The snowball effect which might start from a small problem might result in you gravely hurting your loved ones. The problem with the toy could be easily solved if you and your sibling agree to share the toy and play with it together.

Jealousy can also bring about the will to not give up and make one practise a particular skill or subject till you beat your rival. For example, if you do not do as well academically as a classmate, you might be filled with jealousy. This can be converted to determination which could drive you to work harder than before and motivate you to push yourself to your limits in order to beat your rival. Instead of hating the person who beats you, you would communicate with the person and try to find out what can be done for you to do as well or be even better than him or her. With this newfound determination, not only will you become smarter and a better spot, you will also get the thrill of achievement when you finally beat your rival.

So, like heaven and hell and an angel and a demon, jealousy has two sides and can bring courage but it can also bring about downfall by filling one with hatred.

What  happened today..

Woke up at 5.17,(according to my phone) turned on the computer & nobody was online on msn(of course..). Studied awhile for Geography :P ( budak baek aperh!! ) . Actually.. I never study, I just do my Geography homework & i don't even know what i was doing ,hehe. ("'\^_^/'") 5.45 , went to freshen up. Hairstyle & attire & packed bag, went to school. 

Literature was fun! History too! Science great! Microscopes! The plant cells are sooooo kyiuuute!! but it looks like cartoon blueargh! i just like, don't believe if its real :P Went to recces with friends & all.

Geography test!!! No protracter = die . Well not really.. Neither Ms Zahira nor Mr Soh scolded me,woo! All the questions seems so easy for me to understand but i just forget what the exact answer is,Nooo!

Cool! Test over! No need to worry about geography animore. (Nehhh!) Still have more exams to go in 5 years D8.Hope to go to express within 2 years.Went for malay class, i always run to class because i want to be first.I  ran in a sat & mdm sabariah asked me why i was late for class in an angry manner. I explained to her about the Geography test.Seconds later, Friends was about to walk in but my teacher stopped them & scolded them. I felt guilty a little for not telling them to walk faster, and i didn't know we were late anyway. Just blame on geog tcher! muahaha! Just joking :P

Malay was great! we did group works ( MY FAVOURIIITTE! is wasting time & chatting with friends, thats why i love group works).

After school,

After that teacher forgot to tell 1N2 to stay back haha! Went to class with friend & chat chat then go Macdonalds then go back school then malay dance pay $1 then warm up then dance then tada! BYE (sudah malas...)

I LOVE NURMAWARNIS BTE KADIS!

Success For Living Learning Journey

Today, woke up at 7.09am(according to my handphone timing), actually, i woke up much earlier than that. It  was 4am early in the morning, i was supposed to do my homework at that time, but i kept snoozing & snoozing until i'm too tired to snooze & my handphone alarm was off due to the flat battery.After few hours later, my mother suddenly shouted at me.

I knew i would be extremely late for school & my name would be written down on the 'thing'.I ran down to the bus stop like a crazy mad cow.After a few seconds, i was glad that the bus came. When i aboard the bus, i tapped my card on the 'thing' & i heard a *tit tit tit tit* sound, I thought that is was my card & i panicked. I was glad when i notice that it wasn't a red light. The red light was unfortunately from a bangladesh. Haha, no big deal. But i also pity him )': . I dislike seeing people being poor,sick or in a trouble & all. Luckily he has some coins in his wallet! :D But i also feel very very sorry for him. 

Reached school, walked very very fast to the main gate, i saw like a robot using a loud hailer saying " walk faster". But actually it wasn't a robot ! haha.then go wrote my name down, got scolding from the teacher(i don't know what is his name O_o) & all . I was shocked that assembly was over then i ran up to class b4 any teacher would scold me that i was late.Lucky for me, i came in, in time. Few periods later, Me & friends ate & joked together. 

After that we gone to the foyer while waiting for bus. Chatted for awhile, bus came, went into, sit beside friends & all. Reached. Hot sun. Perspiring. 2 freaking bitches came & follow me . I like scolded them to go to another group. Ms goh saw me. She dragged me & Seri(randomly picked) to another group. GRR!!! i hate those 2 freaking nerds who always bug me !! They make me look like a nerd!

SOO ANGRY!! I feel like i wanna cry!Freakin pissed!! now im with the 2 idiots in the same group with them ARGH!! 

Feeling jealous while friends chatted & laughed tgt with student leader. I WANNA BE IN THAT GROUP!!! STUPID CHILDISH FREAKING BABIES YOU'RE NOTHING BUT SHIT!

Go die !! shooo scram fuck away!!

no offence to those reading this, anyway , appreciate for reading, my favourite stalker :D 

Today, After School

Today,23rd February 2010.Well, lots of stuffs happened during school hours and after school hours, so i'm just gonna talk about what happen after school. This is how it goes down..

After school, i noticed that i was taller than the freaking idiot,Ee Jay, I thought that i was short,But i'm also scared that i would gain weight. I drink 2 glasses of FULL CREAM milk everyday! I think i'm gaining alot of weight!

Ok & that's that. Dayana & I walked together out of school, we chat for a little while as we walked past the Home Economics Cookery, I was supposed to look for Miss Radiah, but luck came that the cookery room door was closed and she wasn't there. Waving goodbyes to liya & dayana, i walked towards the Tampines Mini Mart hoping to find that Izzathy would be there.

When the first round i gone there, i do not want to get embarassed, so i walked along the path of toilet terror. I noticed that she wasn't there. so i walked back to school.While i was walking back, i saw Seri & Julia walking together going to macdonalds. They wanted me to follow them ,  so i went to follow them. While walking back, i saw Miss Radiah & Mdm Sutaya. Then Miss Radiah told me to postpone & all. Then at Macdonald, we sat & chat. Then i gone back to school alone, for my cheerleading. I went straight to hall. 

When I stepped into the hall, I could hear screamings of my name "Viki!!" . I was extremely happy that i happened to saw izzathy practicing her floorball with them all. I shifted my eyes to the right. I saw an idiot looking at me(no offence :p cus i just don't like boys hehe ) , khairul. Then, I just turned to look back and see the clock(what time is it).Then i turned back and walked straight past him, & he said, "I saw that" smiling. Then i was like (huh?saw what?clock?me?me turning back?) , so.. i just do my hand signs and body language to him, lawl.

The clock strikes 3pm,this is not a fairy tale so im just exaggerating. Cheer captain told us to do warm ups, after done, we learn the 8 steps of the first song.It was hard for me to memorise, and i kept changing seniors to teach me,  haha! 

ok , the last part of every post would be lesser detailed, cus im so tired & i always blog at the late evening, ok now the last thing i want to say is,

I LOVE NURMAWARNIS KADIS
&
i miss my long lost bf )':

I dislike/hate him/her?

During the R2ISE lesson,which was after assembly, i was called out by Ms Tan for STC talk, she is my class form teacher,teaches my class literature, as well as my house mistress.Walking slowly out of the classroom, looking at that scary look of her, smiling widely at me.Sweat began to pour down silently.I suddenly felt that i was called for oral when i was in primary school.

 

I quickly sat down rudely,dragging of chairs,body posture & all. I thought that i do not have to be so clumsy by doing clumsy things like greeting.Well, my class and I had already greeted Miss Maisara & Ms Tan. But I also have a strong feeling that STC would involve in the conduct reports.

Ok so & so. We had a little chat about hows life in secondary school. I'll skip that, because i know i will keep typing like forever until i can't complete my homework. And then, i would give a reason to my teacher that i did not finish my homework because i was blogging or maybe 'No Reason' & after that, don't ask me how would the teacher punish me.

Okay, During the STC talk, one of the questions that was hard to answer was, "I dislike/hate him/her?". Well, when i first came to this school. I would want to vomit straight after i saw my future classmates. I did not expect that of those unlively & monkey faces curlicues of my class except for my primary school friend, Shahrukh. From that day onwards, i regret choosing this school,like an ant struggling through a storm, didn't get the things that you wanted, forcing yourself to do so. Until the 4th day of school, i met 2 lively girls, giggling and playing together as if they were close friends & sisters. I start to realise that it wasn't bad at all. I recently founded out that my friend was a dramatist.

Getting back to the question, the person i hate is Ee Jay. You know why? The immediate thoughts are; I don't like his name, on the first day of school, when i first saw his face, i wanted to vomit, just like what i told you just now. Everytime when he scold me vulgarities & all, I just look at him, i don't smile, i don't react,just, normally looking at him. Then after school, on msn, he say that he doesnt like my face,like not happy like that. My face is normally like that because of my braces. If you're reading this now, then i hope you get a little info about me here. Weeks later, I got to know him better, he likes to show off & be the best, he's arrogant(i don't know what that means), he acts cool,selfish,likes to complain to Jun Jie/friends, he has no feelings towards others. Like.. when.. Ms Tan scolded me & Ee Jay because of copying. He don't feel guilty of what he did, he pointed to me straight that i copied him. That's not at all fair! I helped him on his drawing, he did not give me face! Okay whatever. i'm tired of talking about this shitty boy right now.I FEEL SICK!

If you think im racist,then whatever. I just hate his attitude & his looks. Well, other chinese/christian people are waaaaay better than him. 

I think i'm already out of topic . I'm just memorising my reasons to give to Ms Tan, so that i could change my place, so that i could reduce seeing that shitty face everyday. If, Ms Tan, if you are reading this now, please, i hope you understand how my situation is right now.

The end.